Home. ish.

Home. ish.

Carbondale, Illinois is as close to having a ‘home’ as I’ve experienced thus far.
This is the town where I made my first snow-person, learned how to drive, cut class, and found my love for romping outdoors. Home is the place where I have the deepest memories, history, and connection.

I have friends here dating back to pre-school, and my mom lives here with my step-dad and a young Australian Shepherd. Would this still be home if my mom weren’t here? Yes, although I would probably have fewer visits. I mostly travel here for family Thanksgivings and Christmas holidays, but I still call southern Illinois “home”.

Coming here in the middle of winter is not ideal, but at least during this cold snap I have real plumbing and no propane-use worries. I drove around this morning visiting a few old friends and thought about what makes this place “home”. The physicality of the town has changed a lot over the years – roads re-routed, new street lights, businesses gone and new ones in their places, new buildings built.

It’s not the town itself that is ‘home’ to me, it’s the people I know, the community I left, the old friends still here. But it’s also the surrounding wilderness – the great Shawnee National Forest where I spent a lot of my youth camping and tromping around, Crab Orchard and Cedar Lakes for humid summer nights skinny dipping, Giant City State Park with it’s grand rock formations for clambering.

2 thoughts on “Home. ish.

  1. “The Past is a foreign country.”

    I got to share a little slice of time and home with you in Carbondale. Our paths often intersected and crossed in weird ways over the course of the years. I know what you are saying.
    I have not been back to Carbondale in about two decades now. I fear it will be as different to me now as any other town that I haven’t visited.
    The places where I lived I have been told have been torn down (some should have been when I lived in them!) others have changed.
    The people I knew there are now gone. Plus they are not the same people they were then. Neither am I for that matter.

    I miss that town. I miss that time.
    I would love to go back, but for me, I fear it would never live up to any expectation I might have. Maybe if I am taking one of my kids there for college. Maybe that will make it the Carbondale I once knew again.

    1. Hi!
      I think that if you came back, it would feel foreign, strange, and utterly familiar.
      You’d go drive around Giant City State Park and immediately remember the place you once called “home” for a few years.

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